that I have "Blogspot" added to the tool bar on my internet browser will remind me that I have one of these things.
Honestly I have not been writing at all.
If I write it tends to be Sunday sermon notes - and even those translate mostly into highly colored doodles.
Sometimes when I am by myself I start writing in my head.
The thing is - lately I'm not often by myself.
But right now I am cleaning my room.
I am by myself.
I started writing.
I realized today that I like flowers.
I have always liked flowers - not excessively, but just as much as any other person.
However I rarely go through the trouble of buying them for myself.
They are one of those useless beauties.
You collect them, you look at them, they die.
Eventually.
Does it not seem frivolous?
But then, it is a luxury worth having.
There was something pleasantly domestic about walking around the farmer's market with my mom, arms full of white and purple flowers.
There is something idyllic about it.
Perhaps even if you have no money to spend on any useless beauty, it is worth attempting to find a flower to display.
If for nothing else, at least for a moment you can imagine life is idyllic.